~:The Wheel Of Life:~

my stupidity...~

2008-05-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

I don’t know whether I should write this or not. Since I felt like I want this to be put down..so here it goes.

Lately, I feel so bored with life. I want to have a steady relationship but whenever I try to hook up with someone, I can’t put my interest and stay at one girl. People can say, even I can say that I’m not ready yet to be serious in live. I mean social life. All I wanted was having fun, a temporary fun with someone. Why I can’t find a thing on any girls that makes me want to stay serious with her? Or Maybe I should ask myself that question. Is it my attitude? My pride? I’m promiscuous? I just don’t understand my own behavior. One thing that I hate bout myself is I seldom appreciate things that I can have it in easy way. I’ve read somewhere on the article saying that men appreciate more when they had a hard time to acquire it. Since I’m a man, thus its in my blood right?

I would say, so far in my life, I never face hard times. Maybe this is the cause that I’m not appreciate.. well its not that I’m not appreciate anything in my life. Its just that I should be more grateful on everything that I had. Maybe I should start my own life quickly so that I can feel the hardship and realize how hard it is actually to have what I have now.

Back to original story, maybe this is the time for me to take a break, stay sober and stop thinking about the opposite sex. Later, if they come again, I’ll try to work it out. But for the moment, I have to find the actual need to them later on in my life. No offense to everyone. This is just me and how I feel bout myself. I know sometimes we get stupid. And now is the time to fix everything. God’s willing.

Tired... Too tired...

2008-05-12T18:58:00.000-07:00

I'm soooo tired. I haven't slept for almost 3 days. I've gone to Pulau Kapas last weekend. And whenever I travel, my internal clock take some time to adjust before I can have my normal sleep pattern back. The first night I can't sleep because I was on the bus to Terengganu. As I arrived there, I was too busy with 'sea' activities till I can't find time to sleep. Later that night, Ive gone to squid jigging. Later I'll post another story on my activities on last weekend. Now I need to have a nice sleep.

I'm so tired..

What happenned..really?

2008-05-05T21:51:00.001-07:00

“Malaysia, a country known for its censorious government, which controls the mainstream media, bars students from political protest, and jails dissidents without trial.” (The Time, 2008)

I quote this from the time magazine. As we all know that the time is a very established international magazine that continuously affects the world by their opinion. When I read that quote, somehow as a Malaysian I felt embarrass, ashamed, and intimidated. Well, what happened to our government really.. I bet Malaysia is the only democratic country in this world that still performing this kind of acts. I always questioned myself, what is democratic? Should I make assumption on current world situation, or should I just trust on whatever happens in Malaysia. When the world starts to questioned Malaysian democratic policy or performance, what did we do to enlighten it to the world?

Pre-Graduation Laziness Sydnrome

2008-05-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

My studies at UKM almost come to an end. After 4 years of ‘torture’ body and soul, I’d say I’m going to miss this all. I’ve been the first batch of this course in UKM. I always heard that the 1st batch is a lab rat. I wouldn’t say that I’m denying that, in fact I’m totally agreed with that. We stumbled upon many problems and plenty of obstacles during our study years. Most of the qualified therapist always argues how competent we are. And we all continuously show them about who we are, what we are capable of (well, most of my friends do, I’m suck at it. I always got scolded for not being professional. Heh). Finally, after all the struggles, now we are getting respects from the association and they absolutely acknowledge us and our capability.

I’ve been thinking of what am I going to do after I graduate. Do I have to be the therapist, or would I join other profession that unrelated to me, or like my lecturer suggested to me, teaching. Damnit. What other options do I have?

Although my study almost finish, but its not finished yet. I have few reports to submit, repair my thesis, professional clinical viva, thesis viva. That’s all have to be finished in this final 2 weeks. But since its only 2 weeks to get out of this place, something had stricken me. My friend called it Pre-Graduation Laziness Syndrome. Even though I admit that laziness has became part of me, but I’m not saying that only recently I’ve became lazy. I’ve been lazy all my live. Haha. Always delay task given to me. Procrastinate has become part of me for a very long time… Can somebody help me with his? Heh. And for those who’ll be graduated or in their final years beware of this syndrome because this syndrome is contagious ;P

New hobby...

2008-04-30T16:16:00.001-07:00

Enough with all the lies I've made. Heh. Those were things I'd say I'm not proud of and I really regret it.

Lately, my family have a new hobby. Tennis. Everyone kinda fond of tennis. My brothers all try this new sport. They all got their own tennis gear. Since I know nothing of tennis, I was suck at it at first. I was learning to pick up the pace.

I hope this new hobby will last, because the past hobbies has not stick with us. Heh. I have tried squash, rugby, badminton. Sadly, we only continue all that sports once in a while.

My brother-in-law is calling me. Okay, gtg. Tennis time!

A lie that can't be unsaid...

2008-04-30T01:16:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to start.. Basically I couldn't admit it in real life. I've made a lie to someone dear to me. I know I shouldn't have done that, I could just admit the truth, this guilt will never come to me. But unfortunately, since all the words have been spoken, I just don't know how to undo it.

If only..

If only I could wish that I can turn back the time, start all over, and start by telling the truth.

Its only the matter of time till the person know the real deal..

So lazy to update..eh~

2008-04-25T12:49:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since I last update this blog. Work, work, work and not to forget, I was so damn lazy to update this blog *high*. Finally all my project have been submitted and one more paper to go. Then, graduation. I guess I'm going to miss deeply these study times. Can I just wish I'd never stop study but the money keep flowing in? Lol.

To all my same-batch friends who already got their work waiting for them, good luck to you all. I'm still considering several option before I apply some place. Finally, work times come eh.. hm, gain some money and start my own life. Good luck for me :-)

Have a look..~

2008-04-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

I saw this post on the net, he were getting mad at someone who stole the wheels of his office chair.. I wonder who could do such a stupid act.. Perhaps, they just want to play prank to him. What ever it is, this is the picture of it..

The person have to put a bricks under his chair to raise it.heh.. So funny, lol;P

First update after thesis submition

2008-04-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

O'oh.. I already one step to the freedom.
Thesis submitted.. Final's around the corner, clinical viva in a month
And finally graduation in August... I'm so can't wait that moment..
Good luck guys and thanks for everything for your help

p/s: I dedicate this post to all who are finishing their studies..

Eat to live... or live to eat?? Lol..

2008-03-20T02:06:00.000-07:00

Lamb for 4.. come and join finish the meal...

Well I would say that I've heard that Arabs eats a lot. They even manage to eat a whole lamb just for 4 persons. At first I thought they just saying that literally, I don't know that was the truth. Until I saw this picture in one of my friends page, now I believe it. The Arabs sure now how to eat. heh. Mountain of rice, whole lamb just for 4 persons meal at one time. By just looking at it made me startle.

I think if they brought this kind of meal into Malaysia, I'm quite sure that stroke and heart disease rate will increase greatly. The Arabs enjoy their meals but most of them didn't perform sedentary lifestyle like Malaysian.

Anyone want to try this kind of meal? Let me know and I'll tell you how can I get it for you.

Teaching?? Owh..that's so not me..

2008-03-06T18:45:00.000-08:00

Someone suggested me to go teaching right after graduate. I mean by applying post to teach. Hah.. That's so not me. I'd prefer clinical work rather than facing students and books..lol. Well, thos who suggested me earlier, thank you very much but for the time being, I think I'm going to pass. Plus, I have narcolepsy; that is whenever someone talk in front of me, I'd easily fell asleep. That sucks ain't it?

By the way, thank you very much to Dr. Sazlina who helps me a lot during my learning years in UKM.. (it sounded like I'm finished already..haha)

Another repost..~

2008-03-05T22:06:00.001-08:00

This is another repost which I originally got from a friend. At first I thought after I read this, it was kinda washed me inside.heh. Well, here it is. The post titled was,

It is useless, Granpa

An old American Muslim lived on a farm
in the mountains of eastern Kentucky
with his young grandson. Each morning
Grandpa was up early sitting at the
kitchen table reading his Quraan. His
grandson wanted to be just like him and
tried to imitate him in every way he
could. One day the grandson asked,

"Grandpa! I try to read the Qur'an just
like you but I don't understand it, and
what I do understand I forget as soon as
I close the book. What good does reading
the Qur'an do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from
putting coal in the stove and replied,

"Take this coal basket down to the river
and bring me back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told, but all the
water leaked out before he got back to
the house. The grandfather laughed and said,

"You'll have to move a little faster
next time," and sent him back to the
river with the basket to try again.

This time the boy ran faster, but again
the basket was empty before he returned
home. Out of breath, he told his
grandfather that it was impossible to
carry water in a basket, and he went to
get a bucket instead.

The old man said, "I don't want a bucket
of water, I want a basket of water.
You're just not trying hard enough," and
he went out the door to watch the boy
try again. At this point, the boy knew
it was impossible, but he wanted to show
his grandfather that even if he ran as
fast as he could, the water would leak
out before he got back to the house.

The boy again dipped the basket into
river and ran hard, but when he reached
his grandfather the basket was again
empty. Out of breathe, he said, "See
Grandpa, it's useless!"

"So you think it is useless?" The old
man said, "Look at the basket." The boy
looked at the basket and for the first
time realized that the basket was
different. It had been transformed from
a dirty old coal basket and was now
clean, inside and out.

"Son, that's what happens when you read
the Qur'an. You might not understand or
remember everything, but when you read
it, you will be changed, inside and out.
That is the work of Allah in our lives."

Question to Ponder...~

2008-03-04T04:59:00.000-08:00

Well, someone post this in friendster..so I thought I'd share it here. Its kinda funny when you read it thoroughly.

Question to ponder..

1. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge,
would they call it Fed UP?

2. Do Lipton Tea employees take coffee
breaks?

3. If olive oil comes from olives,
where does baby oil come from?

4. If people from Poland are called
Poles, why aren't people from Holland
called Holes?

5. Do infants enjoy infancy as much as
adults enjoy adultery?

6. Why the man who invests all your
money called a broker?

7. If horrific means to make horrible,
does terrific mean to Make terrible?

8. Why is it called building when it is
already built?

9. If a book about failures doesn't
sell, is it a success?

10. If you're not supposed to drink and
drive, then why do Bars have
parking lots?

11. If you take an Oriental person and
spin him around Several times, does
he become disoriented?

12. If vegetarians eat vegetables, what
do humanitarians eat?? Human ???

13. If working hours are meant for
working, then why are you reading
this??

Hatred..~

2008-02-13T08:08:00.000-08:00

What's the meaning of hate, hatred, being hate.. Why we couldn't just just made a deal so that everyone can understand each other situations? If this possible, that means, no war could occur. But first, let's not think of war situation. If we think back on our daily life.. it seems like almost everyday we come upon conflict. I shouldn't say its bad because it does help us grow up. Just think of your experience..

I once have this friend, a good friend actually. We used to talk a lot, debate a lot, share idea and vision together a lot. But the thing is, he has this specific way to express his unsatisfying feeling towards someone is really weird and, what can i say, its suck. Really really sucks. Well, that's what makes me really hate him. Its been a year already, my inner self still wouldn't acknowledge him. It's all because of his behavior last time.

But lately, I've given a thought on this matter. I'm almost finish studying. Maybe its time for us to make peace to each other. I do feel tired of this hate. But my ego said that until he realise that last time was his mistake and he appologize to me, then till then I'll never forgive him. I know this ego thing would destroy me if I think rationaly. Deep inside me, I could say that I really want to make friend with this person again..

Think rationally before you act because hatred might destroy you..

Politics..~

2008-02-06T07:30:00.000-08:00

"One lie is a lie, two lies are lies, but three lies are politics"
This is the phrases we heard about politics. I myself sometimes doubt myself what party should I support. To tell you the truth I'm not into politics. But lately we can see that everyone always forward message about their favourite party. I'm not condemning one another. But it would be better if you want to break others words, you could have evidence that stand on a firm ground and not making your own assumption. You are not fooling a cave-man here. We're in a cyber era. I'm so sick when I see people curse each other, thus resulting broken friendship and making enemy. Its just a politics man. No need to become that hush.
I've had this one experience whereby I've gone to Terengganu. Dungun to be exact. Pas people pray at different mosque than UMNO people. Well, what I can say is, they had such low standard IQ to make their village become broken down like that.
If we think of their manifestoes, not all of them can be done during their serving time. If they couldn't predict what could be done and what couldn't, you aren't suitable to be a leader because you can't look forward to what you can give to your peoples.
All I can say is, to all the candidate that competing in this election, I hope that they are ready to make full commitment to their work. All the best for all.

2008-02-03T14:29:00.000-08:00

Today.. I Wish For A Better Day And Better Person Than Yesterday

I should blame the day that has been a bad day to me. But all I can do is wish for a better day for today, tomorrow and every other day to come.
Yesterday, I've been bad. Bad enough to make someone mad at me. I'm sorry for what I've done. Tell me what can I do to repay that debt.
Today, the sun has shined. Although the fate has been decided, I'll always pray that it'll not hold me in it and let me decide my own way. The sun shined to me and give my the good luck shine shown its support.
Thanks Allah, the Almighty god, for blessing everything in my life.
To You, I'll always pray for a better day, everyday.

Back for Good~ From Johor...

2008-01-31T08:29:00.000-08:00

After three weeks posting at Permai Hospital, a mental asylum, that was famous with the character of Keluang-man. Well, I could say that I learnt a lot there. Different personality of human; not just at the patient, but also the people there.

Actually, I want to share a story. I once heard that there was one leader of an empire. In the middle of his reigning era, he took a time off, and stay in the mental asylum for 3 months to learn patience, human behavioral, and many more. And soon after he get out of it, his leadership skills improved. He learnt to be a better leader by getting an understanding in that mental asylum.

So, what should I say I've learnt there? A lot.. And what more important I pass my clinical posting with a flying colors..hehe. Well, I should say that this is my first time I succeed very well with my clinical posting. I really hope the next one which is in paediatric, I should do fine too. After all, I think I should thank to all the therapist that help me learn much..

Hiding?~

2008-01-26T08:00:00.000-08:00

Is it worth hiding when you know someone will eventually found you?

Everyday we encounter problem. How you deal with it does matter in our life. For me, I sometimes wonder, does it worth confronting the problem face to face or just let it pass. Last week I found out that I've been cheated badly by someone I used to trust most. It really sucks and my heart was torn badly. At first I thought I want to have a payback towards that person. But when rationality comes to my mind, I think it's better to just let it pass. And make that as a experience and precaution so that I won't be cheated this way anymore.

American Gangster.. Is it based on a real story??

2008-01-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

Oh well, this is my second post that relate to a movie. Last time was about Rocky Balboa. And now, I'd like to review about American Gangster starring Denzel Washington and Russell Crowe (did I spell their name right?).

American Gangster is said based on a true story of Frank Lucas (Denzel Washington) who become a drug lord from a driver and right-hand man for Bumpy Johnson, a mob leader of Harlem, USA. Nobody used to notice Frank Lucas, the quiet driver to one of the inner city's leading black crime bosses. But when his boss suddenly dies, Frank exploits the opening in the power structure to build his own empire and create his own version of the American Dream. Through ingenuity and a strict business ethic, he comes to rule the inner-city drug trade, flooding the streets with a purer product at a better price. And condemning the other drug dealer in the neighborhood.

He is shown to have a confident character to march deep into the jungle of South-East Asia as the Vietnam War still rages, looking for drugs right to it sources and smuggle the drugs into the States by hide the drugs under the caskets of Vietnam casualties. Besides that, Lucas outplays all of the leading crime syndicates and becomes not only one of the city's mainline corrupter, but part of its circle of legit civic superstars.

Richie Roberts (Russell Crowe) is an outcast cop close enough to the streets to feel a shift of control in the drug underworld. Roberts believes someone is climbing the rungs above the known Mafia families and starts to suspect that a black power player has come from nowhere to dominate the scene. Both Lucas and Roberts share a rigorous ethical code that sets them apart from their own colleagues, making them lone figures on opposite sides of the law.

Later in the story, Richie Roberts gets a source that lead to the biggest heroin confiscated in the States history. And later leads to the capture of Frank Lucas. He was convicted, but Richie demand his cooperation capture corrupts police. And this leads to revelation legions of corrupted police officers.

This review is based from the story shown in the movie. But the real thing is the story is just 1% reality and 99% Hollywood. Here is part of the issues. Everyone has thought about hiding the drug inside the caskets but the reality is, it didn't hidden there. And the other one is Frank Lucas didn't help rooting the corrupted officers based on the movie. It was fabricated in this movie.

So, how great this movie is, I think Hollywood ought to say that they fabricate American Gangster based on the real events. However, this movie is one of the best movie I've seen. So I should say that I recommend to watch this movie.

Denzel Washington rules!!!! ;P

Courtesy from The Star and Wikipedia

No more the old BOSAN ( I wish..)

2008-01-18T20:12:00.000-08:00

I have no idea what to say here. I'm just so bored with my life lately. Nothing exciting about me currently. Care to share a bit with me on what's happen with your life? Ihsan? Izwan? Miss S? Diha?Anyone?

Aha, I got really nice story to tell here. Usually during my clinical placement, I'm the one who makes problem with the therapist and anyone. Just like my previous placement in HUKM, I made some problems there and even have an enemy there. Well, I kinda hate her because she's the one made me failed my placement by giving me C- while others A@A-. Not fair right? She's so bias. I hate her..
Well, now I think I'm more calm than the last time where this time, I'm not making anymore scene. But my friends does. Well, Its a good sign that I've changed a bit to follow the trend there. There's a saying in Bahasa, "Masuk kandang kambing kita mengembek, masuk kandang kerbau kita menguak". Well, I think I can adapt there well. Wish me luck (for not making anymore scene.hehe)

The second week..~

2008-01-18T18:03:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm just posting this just to keep my blog updated. Since now I'm in Johor Bharu doing clinical placement, my life just getting so hectic. Even though I brought with me my wireless broadband, I just couldn't find the time to sit in front of the computer. I'm so busy with daily case report, ward round (I'm covering 2 wards per day - and its almost like I walked for more than 3 miles a day just in that hospital alone), patient outing planning, assignment, and not to forget, my thesis (ihsan, when are you going to help me with this?).
I ain't say that this only happen in my life. I know everyone is busy with their life. Well, life goes on. Miss S, keep me update with your teacher's life. I heard so little bout it from you and we ought to share more bout it. Now I'm in Kajang doing some work for my thesis. and tomorrow, I'm going back to Johor to continue the second week of posting. *Sigh*. To OT's good luck in your placement. May we'll see again at diner end of February.
Daa~

Tampoi.. Here I come...~

2008-01-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

Starting tomorow, I'll start my posting in psychiatric in Hospital Permai, Tampoi. I hope it'll all going well there.
About my previous post, I don't care what people talked bout me anymore. I already have a talk with some of my friends, Miss S, Hafiz"pon" and Liyana. Some of their advice really open up my mind bout how I really act whenever I'm with them. Maybe I do act like a sage wannabe. Well, what the heck, I'm still who I am right? But to Miss S, as I promise you, I'll try to change myself.

"Talk LESS, hear MORE."

Well, that's what I can summarize from all of their advice. By the way, I was thinking of changing my nick to Muhammad "The Sage" Salihin. Is it ok? heh..

For all OT fellow, good luck for your posting. I hope to hear more from you guys later. And also, good luck in finishing your thesis. Remember, datin told that we have to submit this 31st March. So, finish your work early, then you can rest early too..heh

From my heart....~

2008-01-10T05:04:00.000-08:00

Someone told me that sometime when they communicate with me they think I took myself as a sage. Well, since someone did post something on my Cbox last week and that has caused me to change to a new Cbox. Back to real topic, well I don't know what you think of me. Yes, as you talk to me about the thing I like or interested, I do talk a little to deep with it. Some take it as, I don't need to know that much. Well, if that what you think, that's fine. Because maybe sometimes I took as when people asked me anything, I don't know how much you need me to explain. I just tell you what I know. And I'm sorry if the thing I said is too much.

The reason I post this here is because my best friend comment on the person who told me that I act as a sage. He said that sometimes I act like I know everything where in fact I don't. Well, I supposed that's my weakness. I do admit it. But how do I changed it unless you told me what's wrong with it. Don't do that behind my back, OK? If I do something not right, please confront me and tell me what is it. I'm not going to be mad, neither despise you. If that's good for me, why not tell me what is it, and I'll try to fix it.

I once asked this matter to one of my friend, Liyana. She told me that I do talk a little too deep into some matters. And from her point of view maybe I should tell what they need to know first talking bout it too deep. Well, that's what I'm going to do. Thanks for your help Lin.

Whatever it is, I would be grateful if someone could help me to shape myself to a better person.

Start posting..~

2008-01-08T00:29:00.000-08:00

Next week going to be the first week this semester I start post for my second part of internship. This semester I'm going to Johor for my psychiatric placement and Hospital Kuala Lumpur for my paediatric placement. It seems like the final moment is ticking. And most of my friends are already talking about work. Oh my gosh, I'm not prepared for all this. Its a total different life between a student and a working man. The tense are also different. I hope this time, the clinical placement will teach me to become more commited with my work and train me become a better therapist and of course a better person.

Some of my coursemates talkes about applying to become a lecturer. Come to think about it, I don't like to teach. Since most of the time in my class, I fell asleep. Yeah, maybe that's the cause of my poor grades. Heh. But you know what, I'm glad with it. Furthermore, I'd like to become a clinician rather than a teaching therapist.

Well, whatever it is, I hope everyone, all my coursemates succeed in whatever area they choose. And for me, I'm just praying whatever the best for me. All the best for all...

My Trip to Bandung..~

2008-01-01T20:39:00.000-08:00

Here as I say before, I'd like to show several pictures the places I've visited in Bandung during my visit last december. I stayed there for about a week.

Here's a picture of me, my brother and my mom just in front of Bandara Husein Sastranegara Military airport Bandung. Bandung is a 2nd most crowded district in Indonesia after Jakarta and it is located in Java Island. As they don't have their own international airport yet, they shared it with the military airport.

The first day, we were brought to Gunung Tangkuban Perahu. Well, this is the view of the inactive volcanic crater. The air here is intoxicated with sulphur smell. Some of them felt shortness of breath due to this smell. Actually, during this visit, it was raining heavily. So the smoke that came out from the volcano couldn't be seen clearly.

Well, this is the hallmark of Bandung. Gedung sate. Not like Malaysia, sate is something we eat right? Here, the gedung sate is a goverment office. Its kinda like a Majlis Perbandaran here. Because of the shortness of time, we couldn't enter this place. So I just take a picture just outside the complex.

Here's a picture of all my family who went there. My father actually having food poisoning. So if u can see at his face, he looked kinda dull. By the way, this picture here shown me and my family and behind us is the Volcanic crater Kawah Putih at Gunung Patua. There's a white lake-like area. Actually its a inactive volcano. You can touch it but be sure to do it at your own risk because its hot. The elders here said that the volcanic waters which you can gather here is a cure for many illness. Its seems like they don't need a doctor around here anymore.heh. So guys, come here if you want an alternative medicine.

Well, there's a story why I put this picture. There's a corner at Kawah Putih's area where this cave is situated. I came here to have a look. There's a sign there to warn visitor not to stand too close to the mouth of the cave. But I kinda ignored it. Suddenly a air wave suddenly gushing out of it and a very strong and thick sulphur smell came out of it. Its just like a dragon breathe. heh. I almost fell in the cave because I couldn't stand the smell.
Actually this cave is used by the japanese to mine sulphur to use as a gun powder to fight to dutch who has been invading Indonesia. As japanese couldn't win the World War 2, and Hiroshima and Nagasaki were dropped atomic bomb, they finally fallback to their own country. The Indonesian Government has made this cave as one of their historic attraction at Kawah Putih here.

So, this is a few places I've visited at Bandung during my visit. I was satisfied because I got what I came here for. I enjoy the nature here and shopping is definitely fun here. Malaysian, we are millionaires as we come here. And plus, there's so many factory outlet here. Branded, souvenirs and everything here are cheap for us.heh. So this is the place you want to go if you have a chance.

The sweet and bitter experience~

2007-12-31T17:27:00.000-08:00

As we stepped in 2008, I looked back and think of what happened to me in previous years. So many things that I could say has taught me to become much better person. Well, that's what experience are supposed to do. Ya, from a teenager to a young adult. When I was a teen, I'd think what would it feel like to be an adult where they can enter bar or snooker center legally. I've been playing snooker since I was at 14 years old. At that time, I always enter that place illegally until my father couldn't take it anymore..haha. Whenever I'm not at home, he'll try search at snooker center, but you know what.. I never stumble or kantoi upon him..hehe. Lucky me.During my school years, I never play truant without my parents knowledge. So it means if I don't want to go to school, I just stayed at home. Good kid eh? So it means that I never get to be labeled bad kids during that age. My teachers always scold me though because always coming late to school.hehe. King of late comers..

I started to drive at 16 years old. A bit late if compared to my friends. And my driving license approved after SPM later next year. Since then, I've had at least 5 accidents. And one of it almost cost a live a woman and her kids. That could be the worst driving experience ever to me. If any of my classmates could remember (which I'm sure they never forget this event) that day we went to picnic. I was driving. On our way back, we were so tired till everyone asleep. It was raining. I wouldn't say I slipped in the rain but I made a deadly mistake by falling asleep on the wheel. Well, I wish I wouldn't admit this, but I couldn't run from the fact that I've almost cost this lady a life. She's suffered a broken hip and a concussion. Illizarov apparatus was put as an external fixature. Oh, wait do spelled this right?. Well, she's on that illizarov for almost 2 months. This is the mistake i regret most.

There's something I always want to ask.. Have you ever killed or almost killed a person? If you haven't, please I would beg to you. Be more careful when you behind the wheel.

This is some part of things that had happened to me. I've shared it here and hoping that one of my classmates would read it and never forget that black event.. To all the person that have involved and reflected in my life whether in good or bad way, it shaped me to whoever I am now. Thank you very much..

*p/s: credit to adinishi pi for correcting the apparatus used.. (Illizarov not olizarov)thx anyway. I'll make sure I'll keep that in mind.

HAPPY NEW YEAR...

2007-12-28T00:07:00.000-08:00

Hurm, I'm tired of thinking new resolution every year. Maybe because most of it is just far beyond reach..hahaha. Maybe sometimes I'm not the reality is not as sweet as what we might think they are. Okay, lets start a new one this year. I'm going to make a new resolution. And I hope its a reachable one..heh.

Try to reach at least 3.0 for my final CGPA in this final semester (just a little bit more...)
Finish my thesis (well, at least Dr. Sazlina pleased when reading it)
Can tolerate more with annoying people..(sabar itu separuh dari iman... especially during driving.heh)
Ya of course, I want to improve myself to a better person. Those who knows me, I'm really grateful to have your help in this matters

Hmm, anyway I want to wish all

Happy New Year 2008
May Your Year Starts With a Bless

Congratulation my friend..anep~

2007-12-25T15:03:00.000-08:00

Last night my friend told me that he's been invited by one of the professor in Japan to be one of his speaker to represent Malaysia as he replied and shown interest in the professor's theory on model of treatment. I'm really shocked to hear it. But he deserve it. His hard work to study the theory finally paid off. The thing is, I envy him. He still not even graduated yet but he's already been invited to share his knowledge and apply it to our community.
Hanif, if you reading this, I just want to let you know that I'm really proud to know you. I know a lot of people has been caling you the proud of UKM. And know you've proven that you are. Congratulation to Hanif..

Tired of waiting...~

2007-12-18T15:06:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wait for your food in a restaurant for a very long time and your stomach starts growling and patient were tested. Last night I was going out to have my diner at one of the so-called famous restaurant with their fast service and a good food.

I don't know what's happening to the restaurant actually but somehow their service last night was really poor. Well I suppose that night really ruined their good reputation so long they've built. Can you imagine, I arrived at the restaurant at 10.25 pm (I was driving all day to kuantan and back and I haven't had anything along the way). By the time we got to our table it was around 10.40pm.

You know what time we got our food? Just before 12am, then they served our meals. I'm so hungry and angry at the same time. Ok, some might think that I should walk out earlier. I'm not denying that I have that certain thoughts in my mind too that night. But I refused to go because I'm so hungry. And after we got the food, the food was so poorly made. It ain't what it used to taste like.

Another thing that made me so angry is the cashier try to charged us with the food that hasn't arrived yet(we ordered it) and said that we couldn't wait for our food. OMG, I'm so angry at that moment. We've waited more than an hour just to get the food that was tasteless and the service was really poor that night. I think this might be the last time I'm going to that restaurant. This one particular night really ruined the so-hard-to-build good reputation.

Hmm, there goes my night. Tired, frustrated, angry, and not so good food.

New update..

2007-12-15T15:28:00.001-08:00

Today is Dec 16 2007. It's almost new year already. There's too many things I want to do before the new year comes. And I don't think I fulfilled all this year resolutions. Sometimes I thought if we could turn back the time, we ought to change our way of living. Hm, well thats the thing. We lived for the future, not the past. Since 2008 is just around the corner, maybe we could make resolutions that suits us better and more relevant than something you made just to put on a pile of trash you left behind when another year comes.

By the way, I just got back from Bandung, Indonesia. It was a nice experience to travel. I'd like to share a few things about this country, but not now. I haven't got a chance to upload my pictures yet. Maybe when I have, I give another post here. Pictures are important. It tells thousand words.

Women..A special creation

2007-12-15T15:08:00.000-08:00

Someone post this bulletin on my page, and I'd like to share it here. It was written in BM, so I guess I'd like to keep it this way. I'm not sure whether the title suit this post or not. Well, how bout you judge it.

Kecantikan seorang wanita ialah terletak sejauh mana ia dapat menahan (menjaga) malunya, sementara kegagahan seorang lelaki ialah terletak sejauh mana ia dapat menahan (menjaga) marahnya.
Orang yang membujang adalah orang yang belum menemukan penghibur duka dan dia baru memperolehinya dengan berkahwin.
Suami adalah orang yang mencari kebahagiaan hidup dengan menghilangkan sebahagian kemerdekaannya.
Wanita menghadapi banyak permasalahan; sebahagian diatasi dengan berkahwin dan sebahagian yang lain diatasi setelah dia masuk ke liang kubur.
Mata yang paling indah tetapi juga harus diwaspadai adalah mata kaum wanita.
Jangan menyalahkan perasaan isteri anda kerana perasaannya yang terbaik ialah ketika ia menerima anda sebagai suami.
Perawan tua ialah wanita yang kehilangan kesempatan menyusahkan seorang lelaki.
Yang diinginkan seorang gadis dari dunia ini hanyalah seorang suami, dan apabila ia sudah memperolehinya, ia menginginkan segala- galanya.
Wanita bisa memaafkan suatu pengkhianatan suaminya, tetapi dia tidak bisa melupakannya.
Kecantikan wanita tidak bererti apa-apa dibandingkan dengan kemuliaan akhlak dan perilakunya.
Sebelum kahwin, wanita hafal seluruh jawapan dan sesudah kahwin, ia hafal seluruh pertanyaan.
Barangsiapa mengahwini wanita kerana hartanya, maka dia telah menjual kemerdekaannya.
Wanita adalah bintang dan pelita bagi lelaki. Tanpa pelita, lelaki bermalam dalam kegelapan.
Wanita lebih cepat daripada lelaki dalam menangis dan dalam mengingatkan peristiwa yang menyebabkan dia menangis.
Wanita tertawa bila ia mampu dan menangis apabila ia menginginkan sesuatu..
Pudarlah kebahagiaan seorang wanita jika ia tidak mampu menjadikan suaminya teman yang termulia.
Wanita sangat berlebihan dalam mencintai dan membenci, dan tidak mengenal pertengahannya.
Wanita selalu tergolong manusia halus dan lembut sampai saat dia berkahwin.
Tidak mungkin seorang lelaki hidup bahagia tanpa didampingi oleh isteri yang mulia.
Wanita hidup untuk berbahagia dengan cinta, sementara lelaki mencintai untuk hidup berbahagia.
Kebijaksanaan wanita terletak di dalam hatinya.
Seorang wanita yang bijaksana menambahkan gula pada kalimatnya setiap kali berbicara dengan suaminya, dan mengurangi garam pada ucapan suaminya.
Cincin perkahwinan adalah cincin termahal di dunia, sebab mengharuskan pemberinya mengingatkan harganya setiap bulan tanpa henti.
Sesungguhnya tidak ada wanita yang sangat cantik, yang ada ialah kaum lelaki yang sangat lemah bila berhadapan dengan kecantikan.
Bagi lelaki, yang terakhir kali mati ialah jantungnya dan bagi wanita adalah lidahnya.
Wanita tidak diciptakan untuk dikagumi semua lelaki tetapi sebagai sumber kebahagiaan seorang suami.
Pada waktu bertunang, lelaki banyak berbicara dan perempuan mendengarkan. Pada saat perkahwinan, perempuan berbicara dan pengantin lelaki mendengarkan. Sesudah perkahwinan, suami dan isteri banyak berbicara dan para jiran tetangga mendengarkan.
Setiap wanita mempunyai dua mata. Adapun wanita yang cemburu berlebihan mempunyai tiga mata. Satu di sebelah kanan, satu di sebelah kiri dan yang ketiga diarahkan kepada suami.
Wanita pada umumnya takut akan tiga hal : tikus, munculnya uban dan wanita-wanita cantik yang menjadi saingannya.
Isteri yang bersikap jujur dan setia kepada suami meringankan setengah beban kehidupan suaminya.
Seorang wanita menghadapi kesulitan apabila ia berada di antara lelaki yang dicintainya dan yang mencintainya.

Beggar..should we pity them??

2007-12-05T05:54:00.000-08:00

I'm sure most of us have confronted by beggar. The purposely try to show pitiful faces to gain sympathy from the public to get some money. I can't say I'm not sympathy with them. But I'm sure this is not the only way that they can do to gain money to continue their life. Its not because I'm cruel, or didn't have a heart towards them. But what do you think if so many beggar in our country, its not just spoiled the view or the place, but also they have made the human power in our country reduced. I can think a lot of things that they can do to help our nation grow. But they'd choose a shortcut, just sit in a corner or in the middle of passageway in a public places to make people notice them and hoping someone giving them money.

You know what, I've heard there's a research done by some NGOs they want to know how much they can gain by just being a beggar. Some of them managed to get almost RM4000 per month. When I heard about this, I somehow felt despise this type of person. I'm not saying that all of them don't deserve our sympathy because some of them do need things like this. But the person who didn't deserve this are the spoiler. There's an old malay saying stated that "Kerana setitik nila, rosak susu sebelanga". I'm here just want to express my dissapointment in some person. They should've known that they can help our nation grow by giving them man power, I mean local man power and help reduce foreign workers..

Signature Campaign..Lets help the world...~

2007-12-05T05:46:00.000-08:00

Come let us help stop Global Warming now and make sure that the world we live in stays alive!
We all can help give support by singing in this campaign to help stop global warming.

Please visit http://www.warmingsign.org to sign up and get facts on Global Warming.

You all can help again by spreading this issue to all your friends and they too can help us stop global warming..

2007-12-02T20:45:00.000-08:00

Recently, I like to surf and read others posts. If I like what I've read, I'd like to post it here too. Now I have quotes that I got from a friend and I'd like to share here. Think about it...

On Friendship

Real friends are the ones who survive transitions between address books.

On Relationship

The most effective way to remember your girlfriend’s birthday is to forget it once.

On Marriage

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, preferably with the same person.

On Parenting

Having one child makes you a parent; having two makes u a referee.

A child’s greatest period of growth is the month after you’ve purchased new school uniforms.

On Finance

I believe we should all pay our tax with a smile. I tried - but they wanted cash.

Saving is the best thing. Especially when your parents have done it for you.

On Self Awareness

You’re getting old when you enjoy remembering things more than doing them.

On Miscellaneous

Regular naps prevent old age… especially if you take them while driving.

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.

Thanks to banji for this quotes...

My Name?..is it?

2007-12-02T07:43:00.000-08:00

What Muhammad Salihin Means

M is for Magical

U is for Upbeat

H is for Hot

A is for Adventurous

M is for Mellow

M is for Mysterious

A is for Athletic

D is for Devilish

S is for Scary

A is for Artistic

L is for Loving

I is for Influential

H is for Heavenly

I is for Impassioned

N is for Neat

Yeah, rite...What's Bout Yours?

What is Love??..~

2007-12-02T06:46:00.000-08:00

A student asks a teacher: What is love?

The teacher said: in order to answer
your question, go to the paddy
field and choose the biggest paddy and
come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them
only once and cannot turn back
to pick.

The student went to the field, go thru
first row, he saw one big paddy,
but he wonders....may be there is a
bigger one later. Then he saw
another bigger one... but may be there
is an even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half
of the paddy field, he start to
realize that the paddy is not as big as
the previous one he saw, he
know
he has missed the biggest one, and he
regretted. So, he ended up went
back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, this is love...
you keep looking for a better
one,
but when later you realize, you have
already miss the person

The student asked: What is marriage then?
The teacher said: In order to answer
your question, go to the corn
field
and choose the biggest corn and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them
only once and cannot turn back
to pick.

The student went to the corn field, this
time he is careful not to
repeat the previous mistake, when he
reach the middle of the field, he
has picked one medium corn that he feel
satisfied, and came back to the
teacher.

The teacher told him, this time you
bring back a corn....you look for
one that is just nice, and you have
faith and believe this is the best
one you get.... this is marriage.

Back Again...~

2007-12-02T06:37:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry milla n others. Recently, I'm so lazy to update my post here. Besides, I'm so busy with my thesis writing and collecting data. Hurm, can anyone here help me with it? My supervisor told me that she wants me to do this research well because she wanted to publish my research in the international journal. By the way, I'm doing a research on few magazines in Malaysia, whether their content is appropriate to our community or not, in terms of medical terminology used, their issues, and several other things.
At first, I thought this research was going to be easy. But it seems like now I'm stumble into several problems. I hope I can finish the research by end of this december..
Anyone thinks that they can help me out..tell me please. I'm really in need of some help here....

Inspiring.. Learn from it~

2007-11-07T01:47:00.000-08:00

Have you ever watch any shows whether a movie, tv shows, or anything that have some quotes in it that touched your heart? Well, here I'd like to share a quote I got from a movie Rocky Balboa. I've watched this movie few times just to hear how Rocky speak with his antonation.

By the way, this is the quote I've been mention earlier:

The world ain't all sunshines and rainbows.
It's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how tough you are,
It’ll beat you to your knees and keep it there permanently if you let it.
You, me or nobody... is gonna hit as hard as life.
But it ain't about how hard you hit.
It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward.
How much you can take, and keep moving forward.
That's how winning is done!

[ Rocky Balboa, 2006]

There's always something that we learn everyday if we noticed it. For me now, this quotes moved me from deep inside. That's why I'd like to share here.

How much ur morality cost?..~

2007-11-03T10:56:00.002-07:00

Before any reading done, I suggest for you to have a look at this web page:

18 year old offers her virginity for £10,000

I don't know what can I say about how our society have become. Luckily this thing happen not in Malaysia. But I'm pretty sure some Malaysian offer it for some cheaper price. Hmm.. I remember one of my teacher, Ustaz Wan Adnan, used to remind us about this phrase, "matlamat tidak menghalalkan cara". So I want to remind myself and other readers, whenever you stuck at one corner, you have all the solution to get out of it if you think about it wisely. Its just the matter of how you view your problem.

Good Day

The world's not enough..

2007-11-02T16:50:00.000-07:00

I got to admit it. You never have enough of this world. Eventhough you just bought a new car, then you going start modify it, or maybe wishing you can add something to the car. You can never had enough of this. *sigh* I know the feeling of this. sometimes I just wish I never had this 'unsatisfy' with everything I had. Recently I just bought a new watch. As I receive the watch, I had this unsatisfy feeling of I should be getting better watch. Owh my god.. Why I didn't think of someone less fortunate. I should've bersyukur of what I had. Hm..someone please help me controlling this boros side of me...

Babysigh

2007-11-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

I normally hear everyone say baby is cute and its fun babysitting them.. Owh, my god.. Today i realise that there sometime can be a pain in the ass. I'm so tired taking care of my nephews. Its not just their naughtiness, but also the cry can irritate my ear..
*sigh* Sometimes I hope, when I marry someday, I'm not going to have child. Huh, I know its not good to wish it that way. But at the same time I do hope I meet someone that can help me change my view to that. It's good to have someone really knows you and understand you and try to change you to a better person.
But still, now I'm so sick of babysitting my nephews and niece.. *sigh*

...~my previous post - the doctor

2007-10-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

Err.. From my last post, It didn't mean that I'm a doctor-to-be too.. Its just, I'm expressing my thoughts on this profession that happen to be all my 5 sibling chose. And of course, my point of view might be biased, but you can correct me if I'm wrong right.. And doctor wanabe, please "tepuk dada, tanya selera" and think twice before you start practicing medicine, because once you stepped in this area, no turning back..

By the way, I do qualify to write about this because I'm in this stream also. I'll soon be graduate as an Occupational Therapist. So I know a bit of what happen in this area, esp all the lawsuits for the doctors.. I've seen it being handled.

Happy reading my blog.

From my eye - a doctor...

2007-10-07T16:16:00.001-07:00

I always hear peoples say that doctor is one of the profession with high income. But what do this peoples (the doctors) think?

Firstly I'd like to tell you how the doctor's life begin when their career starts, which is called internship. They have to start working at 7 am to start round all the bed that they in charged to before starts ward round by the specialist. After finishing round, they'll move to clinic duty. How many patients attend that clinic that day, will determine how long they'll be in the clinic. Sometimes, the clinic even finish up to 4 pm. Just before finishing daily job, they'll check the bed again just before going back home daily. If there is a patient that need extra attention that day, they have to stay back a little while to check them.

Well, this is a basic daily routine for a doctor. Oh wait, is this all? No, of course not. Doctors also have overtime which they called on call where basically they'll need to work all night, and if tomorrow is a working day, they also need to work on that day. So sum up, they work more than 36 hour in 2 days!

Wow, what a tiring job eh.. So, when do they have their time to enjoy themselves? I'd call this work as a work with no life. They sacrifice their life for the sake of others in need. What a noble job. Although they do get paid a little higher than other profession in government sector, but just imagine their life. They deserve to be paid much more than that. I felt sorry for them.

Oh wait, did I mention when the doctors are in line for duty, they risk their life for many lawsuits? We have to admit that we are just a human. We do make mistakes. Human errors is just part of ourselves. But for doctors, they couldn't afford to make any mistake. Because in this line of duty, mistakes sometime means fatal. And when something wrong happen to the patient, normally the patient's family always point out that the doctor makes mistake. Maybe yes and maybe no. But can you imagine after working 36 hours, how can you keep up. Do they ever imagine?

I'm not saying that the doctors isn't to be blamed. But please imagine what they'll go through once they enter this line of duty. Doctors, my advice is please keep your head in the job. And to care giver, please put yourselves in the doctor. What would you do if you're in their position.

I, myself have 5 medical doctors in my family. I've seen them all my life. How they struggle to get the grades to put themselves inside this stream, then they struggle to keep themselves in this stream during studying medical, and finally struggle to fit in this profession after start working. Life's full of struggle. And now, I felt sorry for them that they have to face all those things - variety of illness, many types of behavior of family and patients, and of course, lawsuits.

Hail to the doctors (they should have doctors day..right?)

What happen to our societies??!

2007-10-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

As we can see, nowadays young people are tend to be an artist rather than become person with a good academics. It become sadder that most of these person mentioned earlier are malays. There are so many reality TV shows that recruited young talents to sing and acting. Akademi Fantasia, Mentor, Malaysian Idol, One in a Million and many more.
This growth shown that Malaysians give a good support on this since the credit usage for many peoples had finished just to vote their favorite contestant.
I felt so upset with this phenomenon. We Malaysian, esp Malays, should grow up and look what's ahead of you rather than gain temporary fame and money. I would say that they didn't use their brain for what they want to achieve.
Please grow up man.. You just can't rely on your artist profession. You should realize the importance of the academics also.

Old Skool vs Latest Tech..

2007-10-04T20:21:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Nowadays, we can see a lot of improvement in terms of technologies. Transportation, computers, hand phones, internet, and many more. Are all this improvement suit us well now with us in Malaysia? In fact, to the world. Ya, perhaps I couldn't a agree more on the advancement of these technologies is to help people in their daily lives. The thing is, do we really make use of it to the fullest?

Let us take an example of the internet. Most company nowadays have their own website that we can contact them directly from any computers that have access to the internet. By browsing the company's website, we basically can get the overwiew of that company. And if we need to know further or we want to ask some question, we just need to send an e-mail to them. I've experienced that not all company's website have their webmaster checked their e-mail on daily basis. Or rather update their website frequent. Some of the companies and in fact some government organization's website even shown information that way past its time..( you know what i meant rite?) As a results, readers or viewers tend to gain information that's not up to date. If comparing to the old styles, some companies published their companies info in advertisement. Yes it is more expensive than the internet. But the thing is they'll give an up to date information to view. Furthermore, if we're trying to connect them by snail mail, by any chance, someone will read your mail rather than e-mail. They can just ignore them easily.

Somehow I think old fashion would serve us better if Malaysian's way to this matter been taken lightly.

This coming Raya has shown a decrease in 'kad raya' sending tradition we've had all these time. We'd rather send a mail card or just sms on the day of raya. But what do you think would be more appreciate by the receiver when they received your 'kad raya'. So think bout it, and I think most of us would like to be sent one of those as well right?

Appreciate the technology as well as honor our traditions

Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar

2007-10-02T19:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the election day for UKM students whereby a new representative were elected among the students to voice out the students' voice to UKM and public. As the elected student, they're carrying a big task @ roles to help improve the help UKM can offer to the students.
UKM itself have 3 branch. UKM bangi the main campus, UKM KL the FSKB, FGG, and FPER students at Jalan Temerloh and HUKM at Cheras for FPER students. All the branch was separated quite a far from each other. The election held is to help this campuses connected by choosing the representative from each campus.

From my view, I can't quite say that I see the improvement made by these representative. I'm not insulting them but honestly they're just like being a doll or just 'cukup syarat' that each university has their own students representative. Or did any viewers know what have they done for us, the students of UKM? Please give me a comment so that I can correct my understanding of the MPP functions.

Furthermore, what do you think they should improve in any aspect of UKM to help the students learn better. Please leave a comment..

My car in the making..~

2007-10-01T20:48:00.000-07:00

Now, its been 3 weeks since my car make its way to the garage. The first week is to get the proper listing of engine that suits my car and finding the right price for it. Below this is the picture of my engine that blew up. The mechanics try to show me, where's the problem at my old engine.

The second week is buying and getting the engine back to garage and finding the high end stuff for my engine. The things like drive shaft, engine mounting, high performance clutch plate and brake disc, and many other things that I can't remember.

This is the picture of my car 'naked'..huhu

The third week, which is now, is the assembly week. All the stuff bought is being assembled today. OMG.. I really can't wait the performance of this new engine. The mechanic said, he'll tuned up my engine till its fully show its performance.

This is the engine that going to be put up in my car. Maybe its not as good as many other cars, but I guess its just enough for me. Mitsubishi Lancer's engine 1600cc 16 valve DOHC with 4-1 exhaust system. I bet this engine will easily reach 200km/j. More to come, summons..haha

This one I want to show the difference between my old standard Wira engine and my Lancer engine. Its a big different in size and of course, POWER. Although it looks different but it sure fit in my engine compartment.

Melayu movies..

2007-09-30T06:26:00.000-07:00

Nowadays, we can see a lot of progress in Malay movie production. This means that many people to get involve in this industry. Its good, but also I think I need to comment something. The thing is, whenever we want to develop something; movies, tools, business, we need to do survey on market demand first, don't you think? But most of the films made nowadays doesn't fulfill market's need. That's why most of the movies made locally are ' tak laku'.

But first, we can look at this particular producer and director, Afdlin Shauki. For me, I've never been so fascinate with Malay movie until I saw one of his work. He thinks out of the box, making peoples love by the genius of his humor. Its not like 'lawak bodoh'. He really know how to treat his audiences on what they really want to see at screen. My opinion maybe bias, but how bout you guys? Can you guys give me some comment on this issue. Or maybe you can suggest any other director that worth to be praised.

For me, I do respect local product. But first, the product must respect their market first, don't ya think? So, all I can wish is, "good luck and always strive for success local movie producer"..

Together break fast after finished Clinical Placement

2007-09-29T01:54:00.001-07:00

After 10 weeks apart, we all gather to catch up back. This is all the pictures I've taken yesterday that I'd like to share with all..

Reggy and Li Xian pun puasa jgak ke? And ema dgn muka blurnye..hehe

Few person that I haven't seen for a long time, I'd say..
p/s: ijut still cheeky..hehe

aku yg tengah belajar makan dari Li Xian..haha..caye x kalo aku ckp cmni? ;-)

When a best friend become your arch enemy..

2007-09-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

Have you ever heard of a phrase, "..It is easier to forgive an enemy than a good friends"? For me, this phrases meant a lot to me since so many things that happen around me, basically I can relate to that.
There is this particular guy. I got to know him as I enter UKM. He's such a friendly person and easy to be amazed by him. You know right, when you're spending quality time with a friend, you sometime will just make them your best friend. Share your thoughts, views, and of course your problems. They'll become a good listeners for you. Since they're the one who spend most of their time with you, surely they'll the one who knows much about you. What's your strength, weakness, likes, dislikes, loves, and hates. And if they really want to treasure their friendship with you, surely they'll protect you, defend you and again, of course they won't offend you in any way. But one day, after few years I know him, salute him, suddenly they're attitude and behavior towards me changed. He easily annoys me and make me sick of him. One day, he scolded me using foul words, and my ego got challenged. Since that day, we started to ignore each other and in fact now I won't acknowledge his presence in my life. I', not being childish for not forgiving him. But from the phrases, it's harder to forgive him rather than my arch enemy. Besides, he never admit that what happen before is because of his misunderstandings. Its kinda shitty back then. Sorry man, I know you'll make a good partner for someone in the future, but it just ain't me. I could never stop hating you for this aggressiveness you've shown, not just once, but 3 times man..
Since then, I always make a promise to myself that I'll try my best to surpass all your hopes and visions you've told me before, so that you'll regret forever that ruined our friendship, for me, for life. So long man..

From a view of a man..

Berbuka puasa bersama Gaban..

2007-09-27T10:06:00.000-07:00

"Gaban baru je berlabuh ke?" , this question pop up in my head when I was asked whether I want to join the Iftar organized by him or not... Then I know thatdie panggil ramai2 untuk berbuka puasa kt Village View Restaurant Bangi. Punya la ingatkn ramai la yang nak datangnye.. Finally 7 org je sampai. Ok la, better than nothing right?
X sangka lak ye, Gaban da bekerja, and currently he is the highest paid among our classmate.. Good for you Gaban. I really admire your determination. Ni aku letak gambar scene time berbuka tu.. By the way, did I mention Gaban paid all our meal? Yeah he did.
We arrive at 6 to book the place. But there already almost out of table. Such a big place, but there are so many people eat there. Hm, maybe like its food and its service. When we're ordering the food, they told us that our food will arrive late. So we need to break or fast first before get the real main meal. You can see smokes on the table.. Diorang ni, cm train pulak.. Berasap je. Luckily I don't smoke. Then after the food, we sat down and have a little chat and catching up with everybody.
It was nice to see everyone.. Thanks man for buy us a meal for buka puasa and organize a little gathering together. "Friends to the end.."

Quarrel produce nothing but hatred..

2007-09-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

Today is my final day of internship as occupational therapist at HUKM. Hmm, I don't know what to say, whether I'm glad its finally over or I felt like I still need to repeat the clinical placement again.
Actually I kind of failed this placement. It's all because of a therapist who always see the negative side of me. In HUKM, she always marked me as a black sheep of the OT's group from FSKB UKM. I hate to say it, but she always gets on my nerve. Let me share something to you. As a student who still didn't qualified to be a therapist, I need a profesional guidance to help me in this area. And they, as a qualified therapist, they should've shown a good role model for us right? But this particular OT, *tuuut* (I didn't want to mention her name), she always marked me. Any mistake I've done, she always cursed me behind my back. Yet, she didn't tell me how to do it right. Is this the type of a person who are already qualified and were our clinical educator AKA supervisor?
Yes you can get mad at me what I did wrong, but please tell me how can I improve it and teach me a bit of your knowledge. It's not like I'm stepping on your forehead. I'm learning here. That's why I came there as a student.
Its shitty man..seriously I can't thank enough I wouldn't have to meet her again. I'm tired of this hatred. Because of her behavior, we got into quarrel. Its kinda big actually and we didn't talk for about 2 weeks. And at the end of my placement, I found out that she's making me fail my placement. I don't know what to say, but she's !@#$%.. I hate it man.. I just hope somebody can make a change out of her. From my view, she's a therapist with no profesional attitude..(I'm not saying I have profesional attitude but I'm still not qualified what..)
But there's a proverb I'm not sure where its coming from;

"Change yourself before you change others".

That's maybe true.. From now on, I'll try to make a change out of me by developing profesional attitude..

16 Ramadhan already???!

2007-09-27T06:40:00.000-07:00

It's already 16 Ramadhan today. I have several resolution that i haven't fulfilled yet. How bout you? If I look back before Ramadhan start, I try to make a promise to myself that I want to be a better person. From a 'bad' to a 'good' boy..haha. Ya, basically I do pledge many things. But if I looked back the past few days, weeks, I would say I've done nothing. In fact, I do the opposite things. Lets look at one thing. Basically, I want to make good deeds in this blessful month, but I make a lot of enemies and sin (i guess) instead.

Lets not just look at me. Lets us think for ourselves. Have you done anything that you pledged earlier this month? If you have, its good for you, but if you haven't, lets look at the days of Ramadhan left ahead and try to make a move in our pledge. I'm writing this here is not just to share with you guys, but also I want to remind my self about this.

14 days left of Ramadhan..tick tock.. Time is running out.. save yourselves from the hell..

Water..

2007-09-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

Since I already told you bout my acrophobia, now I'd like to share my favorite place. I always love water. The bigger it is, the more i like. Here I include some of the pictures I've been to. Waterfall, so cold and so noisy hearing the water splashing down from the higher level. Yet it so calm to come here and hear the sound of the water. I love to watch water flow. Another place I like to share is scene at the Pantai Balok Kuantan. I'm not saying I only like this particular beach, but I do love all clean, sandy beach. I can sit watching and enjoying the view with never sleep without getting bored. Last time I remember when I want to enjoy the view and I go out of my hotel where I stay at. Suddenly my mom woke up and count whether everyone is already inside their room or not. Then she found out that I'm missing. She got panicked. She worried that I got involved with prostitutes below around the hotel. She even called me few times(I use two HP) but I left the phone inside my bag. I only bring my other phone. This situation last for about 1 hour. I remember, it was at 3 am. Actually I only sit at my veranda and enjoy the view. But she didn't notice me there. Until I'm so darn sleepy, I came inside. By then I realize that my mom was really worry with me.

I'm not writing this blog to tell you bout my little situation back there. What I'm trying to say is I love spending time watching the nature, hearing its sound, and enjoying the view. Its really calm you down. I can always suggest you to try something like this. More like nature's way for stress management. Try it, and then you'll love it!

New interface for my blog

2007-09-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

After a few trick taught by friends, at last I manage to make a change in my blog. Heh, thanks guys for helping me out. Ok, from now on, I'll try make my page become more beautiful day by day.
But I do need your comment. Please help me out. Gimme some idea how to make my page more interesting

Acrophobia a.k.a fear of heights

2007-09-25T07:59:00.001-07:00

This picture was taken in Sentosa Island, Singapore. I would say that I'm an acrophobic type of person. I hate of heights. But I'm not sure why I'm taking this cable car here at Sentosa. Look at my hand there.. You can see I'm holding tight the bar. To be honest, I'm enjoying this ride. I hate it.. I can't imagine how my friends can let go of their hand and even try to reach their foot. Urgh, I would sweat with just thinking of that. Hmm, have you ever experienced this kind of phobia?
I, myself don't know since when I start having this kind of panic attack. Maybe I've fallen from high place some time in the past. Experience teach us whether it is save to get on something or not. For me, I'd consider myself not happy in this particular height. Hm,can someone help me how can i manage to over come this problem? Help me...

Today the 25th September..

2007-09-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

Today, I've decided to make use of this blog by writing it everyday..(hope so). Ihsan and Syikin is willing to help me. Btw, I'm a type yang lambat belajar bende2 cmni..well, someone please gimme a tutor.. Syikin, honey..help me
Before I start work on this blog, I'd like to share with all that my car has gone back to workshop. If the previously I've changed all its body, but now new engine is coming up in it. Furthermore, new clutch supotoring and pipe lining system will surely boost my car's power. I'm sure can't wait for it to finish. If before, my car's top speed is 180kmj, I'm pretty sure that this time it'll exceed 200kmj easily. So long snails suckers on the road that always block my way..haha.
So far, since the past 3 months, I've used up more than RM8000 for my car. I'm not sure whether its suitable @ exact word is, affordable for me to use this car during study time. So much spent on this car, but I guess less than 25% of its upgrade cost came from my pocket.heh. Thanks to my dad la who become the source of all money..haha..thanks a lot dad

Welcome..

2007-09-17T06:09:00.000-07:00

After a few times urged by some of my friends, at last, my blog page,this page was born. Thanks to you all. Let say from now on, I'm going to start blogging. Hope so..heh.
Well, this first post i dedicate to syikin whom the first person to urge me to start real blogging. Thanks ya..
What ever it is, I'd like to wish you all Selamat Berpuasa di Bulan Ramadhan. May all your good deeds bless upon the shine of Allah. InsyaAllah.