my stupidity...~

I don’t know whether I should write this or not. Since I felt like I want this to be put down..so here it goes.

Lately, I feel so bored with life. I want to have a steady relationship but whenever I try to hook up with someone, I can’t put my interest and stay at one girl. People can say, even I can say that I’m not ready yet to be serious in live. I mean social life. All I wanted was having fun, a temporary fun with someone. Why I can’t find a thing on any girls that makes me want to stay serious with her? Or Maybe I should ask myself that question. Is it my attitude? My pride? I’m promiscuous? I just don’t understand my own behavior. One thing that I hate bout myself is I seldom appreciate things that I can have it in easy way. I’ve read somewhere on the article saying that men appreciate more when they had a hard time to acquire it. Since I’m a man, thus its in my blood right?

I would say, so far in my life, I never face hard times. Maybe this is the cause that I’m not appreciate.. well its not that I’m not appreciate anything in my life. Its just that I should be more grateful on everything that I had. Maybe I should start my own life quickly so that I can feel the hardship and realize how hard it is actually to have what I have now.

Back to original story, maybe this is the time for me to take a break, stay sober and stop thinking about the opposite sex. Later, if they come again, I’ll try to work it out. But for the moment, I have to find the actual need to them later on in my life. No offense to everyone. This is just me and how I feel bout myself. I know sometimes we get stupid. And now is the time to fix everything. God’s willing.

Tired... Too tired...

I'm soooo tired. I haven't slept for almost 3 days. I've gone to Pulau Kapas last weekend. And whenever I travel, my internal clock take some time to adjust before I can have my normal sleep pattern back. The first night I can't sleep because I was on the bus to Terengganu. As I arrived there, I was too busy with 'sea' activities till I can't find time to sleep. Later that night, Ive gone to squid jigging. Later I'll post another story on my activities on last weekend. Now I need to have a nice sleep.

I'm so tired..

What happenned..really?

“Malaysia, a country known for its censorious government, which controls the mainstream media, bars students from political protest, and jails dissidents without trial.” (The Time, 2008)



I quote this from the time magazine. As we all know that the time is a very established international magazine that continuously affects the world by their opinion. When I read that quote, somehow as a Malaysian I felt embarrass, ashamed, and intimidated. Well, what happened to our government really.. I bet Malaysia is the only democratic country in this world that still performing this kind of acts. I always questioned myself, what is democratic? Should I make assumption on current world situation, or should I just trust on whatever happens in Malaysia. When the world starts to questioned Malaysian democratic policy or performance, what did we do to enlighten it to the world?

Pre-Graduation Laziness Sydnrome

My studies at UKM almost come to an end. After 4 years of ‘torture’ body and soul, I’d say I’m going to miss this all. I’ve been the first batch of this course in UKM. I always heard that the 1st batch is a lab rat. I wouldn’t say that I’m denying that, in fact I’m totally agreed with that. We stumbled upon many problems and plenty of obstacles during our study years. Most of the qualified therapist always argues how competent we are. And we all continuously show them about who we are, what we are capable of (well, most of my friends do, I’m suck at it. I always got scolded for not being professional. Heh). Finally, after all the struggles, now we are getting respects from the association and they absolutely acknowledge us and our capability.


I’ve been thinking of what am I going to do after I graduate. Do I have to be the therapist, or would I join other profession that unrelated to me, or like my lecturer suggested to me, teaching. Damnit. What other options do I have?


Although my study almost finish, but its not finished yet. I have few reports to submit, repair my thesis, professional clinical viva, thesis viva. That’s all have to be finished in this final 2 weeks. But since its only 2 weeks to get out of this place, something had stricken me. My friend called it Pre-Graduation Laziness Syndrome. Even though I admit that laziness has became part of me, but I’m not saying that only recently I’ve became lazy. I’ve been lazy all my live. Haha. Always delay task given to me. Procrastinate has become part of me for a very long time… Can somebody help me with his? Heh. And for those who’ll be graduated or in their final years beware of this syndrome because this syndrome is contagious ;P

New hobby...

Enough with all the lies I've made. Heh. Those were things I'd say I'm not proud of and I really regret it.

Lately, my family have a new hobby. Tennis. Everyone kinda fond of tennis. My brothers all try this new sport. They all got their own tennis gear. Since I know nothing of tennis, I was suck at it at first. I was learning to pick up the pace.

I hope this new hobby will last, because the past hobbies has not stick with us. Heh. I have tried squash, rugby, badminton. Sadly, we only continue all that sports once in a while.

My brother-in-law is calling me. Okay, gtg. Tennis time!

A lie that can't be unsaid...

I don't know how to start.. Basically I couldn't admit it in real life. I've made a lie to someone dear to me. I know I shouldn't have done that, I could just admit the truth, this guilt will never come to me. But unfortunately, since all the words have been spoken, I just don't know how to undo it.

If only..

If only I could wish that I can turn back the time, start all over, and start by telling the truth.

Its only the matter of time till the person know the real deal..

So lazy to update..eh~

Its been a long time since I last update this blog. Work, work, work and not to forget, I was so damn lazy to update this blog *high*. Finally all my project have been submitted and one more paper to go. Then, graduation. I guess I'm going to miss deeply these study times. Can I just wish I'd never stop study but the money keep flowing in? Lol.

To all my same-batch friends who already got their work waiting for them, good luck to you all. I'm still considering several option before I apply some place. Finally, work times come eh.. hm, gain some money and start my own life. Good luck for me :-)